I was of two minds about attending the writing under the influence workshop. Not because I didn’t see the value in writing workshops; I’ve participated in enough of them over the years – as student and teacher – to deeply appreciate the value of flexing your muscles lest they atrophy. No, my hesitation had to do with how my once promising day had collapsed on itself. I couldn’t stand the thought of being around people just then. But I decided to chance it anyway. And not only did my writing muscles get a work out, my spirits were lifted.
Tanya Evanson’s ice breaker exercises put you off kilter enough to get you out of your head and then Rumi, Rumi, Rumi…and then group writing…oh how I hate group writing exercises…because my creative route goes brain-heart-spirit to fingers…group work short circuits the path with a detour to the tongue…and as it happened I didn’t verbalize much (read: at all) while the group writing chain linked and clinked itself together…truth is …by the time my puzzle piece of words lined themselves up someone had already jumped in and the chain had another link…always a beat behind, I held my tongue…but then we were sent our separate ways to reshape this chain into something of our own making…this part I loved…this part flowed heart-brain-spirit-fingers…I edit and write for a living so it felt almost like second hand…but then this was no simple edit… no, the words started reforming into something entirely new…and I felt alive in the process…and that gave me the key to the poem…by the time I was done I was quite eager to share it…so eager in fact that my heart was beating a wild tattoo against my rib cage…I could hear it…truth be told…the rhythm was also driven by my body’s instinctive rejection of public speaking …I do it, have done it multiple times, will again …as soon as this coming weekend…but boy do I hate it…boy do I fear it…but true to my mantra…feel the fear, but do it anyway…I leap into it…so I decided to do just that…I volunteered to go first. And because we had to be creative in our presentation I decided to incorporate my yoga (breathing) practice into the exercise. It fit the poem after all and was less about performance and more about melding with the audience. Once I was done, I could relax and enjoy the rest of the presentations and didn’t even think about my craptastic day again until I stepped outside of the cocoon of the workshop and back into the real world.
This was the chain from the group exercise:
Live in silence
Close your eyes
Speak only to yourself
Hear without ears
Feel without touching
Sense without being
This beauty is only for the blind
For those who can see won’t understand
Follow your thoughts
To their rest
I’m unable to speak
But I can use my hands
Truth cannot fill an overflowing cup
Sense the spirit that lives outside
I’m glad for this glass door that’s hiding me from deception
Ask no questions
My body shows it all
Guided by the feetless walk
Upon winding paths of the mind
Trees move not
Hear not sound
Mind sees and hears all
My redraft (entitled Truth):
Close your eyes
(a beat)
Close your eyes
Speak only to yourself
Without ears
Without words
Absent sight and sound
Live in silence
Come alive to yourself
The beauty you shield
Is only for the blind
For only those without
Sight
Can understand
Understand yourself
Follow your thoughts
Use your feet
Use your hands
Do not speak
Let your truth fill this cup
So it overflows
Swirls around you
Like spirits’ touch
Do not flinch
From it
Do not hide
From yourself
Live in silence
Come alive to yourself
The water becomes the mirror
In which you
See yourself
No more deception
No need for hiding
Come alive to yourself
Swim in this truth
Follow the currents
Where they
Lead
Let your instincts guide
You
Trust yourself
Here where
There is
No sound
No sound
No sound
Only you
In the silence
Speaking truth
To yourself
Blind one-word evaluation (one from each member of the group):
“wonderful”
“Lilting”
“Abstract”
“Creative”
“Harmonious”
“Inspiration”
“Lustrous”
“Gripping”
“Fantastic!!!”
“Direct”
“Entertaining”
See also another workshop participant’s experience of the experience.
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